I believe that God, has asked me to share some of my journal entry’s here at Daily Aspects because God, is trying to nudge me to become more transparent compared to my ways of being shy (Loner) so without further do I will begin my journal entry below! (Note this post is long)
For months I have wrestled with my flesh as well as satan’s temptations But I noticed I seemed to give in easily like I was looking forward to the temptation just so I would have an excuse for God, why I was rebelling against Him, But I was not realizing I was actually “Going Under” By allowing my self to give into the temptations as well as my fleshes desires I was blindly setting myself up to become numb to the point I couldn’t sense God, near me anymore, even though God, was still within me, even though at points I was allowing so much destruction within my spiritual life, I begun to feel like a prisoner that was sentence for Life, behind the bars of spiritual despair…
Even though I was being rebellious towards God, He, would call out to me in many different ways telling me to stop with snuffing out the Fire of the Holy spirit, and that I needed to allow God, to nourishment the candle size flame so He, could turn into a raging Forrest fire type burn so the Holy spirit, could use His, radiant fire through me towards others like an endless flow of life,
