Why I Truly Believe There Is A True Loving Merciful God Part 13

I recently published part 12 which you can read by clicking→ here ← if you haven’t read it yet . If you haven’t read part 1 yet please do so by clicking → here ←because the posts after part one are in reverse chronological order leading up to the events in part 1 and beyond. Some posts will display secular music to help set the tone for the post.

I would Like to thank Sherline for contacting me privately and also for asking me some vital questions because I realized then that I didn’t make it clear to the readers that my ex-wife was “not” a prostitute until she left me for her new-found lover before we got married she was very kind to me and I worshiped the ground she walked on, it wasn’t until she left me that our relationship took a turn for the worse. I admit I hated her for years and I wanted harm to fall into her path, but I am a Christian now and I forgave her and wish that she finds room for the Almighty Lord to become a part in  her Life, I’m happy with my new wife and wish the same for her to be happy as well. Also the last few posts has placed my ex-wife in a pretty dark spot light, but we have to all take into account we all have dark time periods in our life span.
In part 11 I left off with the following

 At this point I became frozen within and the killer instinct kicked in, I felt untouchable because of the drugs running throughout my body.

Here I was drugged up on heroin and choking the very woman I thought I loved at one point, I mean I worshiped the ground she walked on and now all I could think about was taking her very life away. I kept choking her knowing the police were on their way. She apparently passed out I thought I killed her so I grabbed my jacked and disappeared into the dark foggy winter night. As I was trying to figure out how to evade the police I kept thinking to myself I just killed someone for the first time and I just thrown my life away, I was freaking out badly because of the heroin. As I continued to run from the scene of the crime I noticed I started to feel like an evil spirit (Demon) was stalking me just waiting for the right time to snatch my soul.

I was probably on the run for about 15 minutes when an unmarked police car pulled up beside me, the police officer identified himself and asked me to stop but I continued to run up the exit ramp then I turned around real quick to get away from the officer. I hid out behind a snow bank and while I was hiding I couldn’t shake the feeling like there was a demon hovering over me breathing down the back of my neck. I became afraid of the eerie feeling so I jumped out from behind the snow bank and that is when the unmarked police car rolled by. I begin running again, I ended up in a huge parking lot and when I looked back there was about 20 squad cars behind me with the cops drawing their guns. (My wife told the police I was armed with a gun) The cops used the PA speaker through the squad car commanding me to stop running or they were going to release the dog on me. I stopped and they surrounded me with their squad cars. After they put the hand cuffs on me they searched me and found heroin in the inner pocket of my coat (I had no clue I had drugs on me) I thought to myself when I was choking my wife my uncle’s friend must have slipped the drugs into my coat he was the only one near my coat during the time of me choking her.

After I was placed in the squad car the plain clothed officer that tried to stop me with his unmarked car told me that he was going to tell the other officers to drop the fleeing and embedding charge, when the other officers ask why they shouldn’t include me running from the police he told them “the suspect didn’t know I was a cop” as I continued to sit in the car the 2 officers near me said to each other that my wife was on her way to the hospital because she was claiming she was pregnant and that she had a miscarriage from me beating her up.

Lord Please Set Me Free From My inner Demons (My Flesh Desires)

If she was pregnant I had no idea she was I started to cry in the back of the car because I was thinking to myself I might of just killed a defenseless unborn baby plus I knew the charges up against me already was going to give me time. When one of the officers walked by the car he noticed I was crying and he said to me “Oh you’re man enough to beat your wife and harm your unborn child but yet you can’t handle being arrested what a p***y” his comment caused me to have a flash back memory how my father use to beat me when I started to cry this made me feel all the more uneasy going to jail that night. Men that beat women are frowned upon in jail and the cop knew this, so the officer that made that comment to me was the one that drove me to the county lock up and when I got to the booking cell he announced I was being charged for beating my wife, this made the other men in the holding tank treat me like I was there prey I felt like I was in a cell full of hungry sharks. By the grace of God non of them tried to harm me but their intimidating looks where enough for me since it was my first time being in the adult jail system.

At about 3 am it became my turn to be booked into the system and that is when I found out by over hearing the guards talk that my wife reported I was currently in a gang and that I couldn’t be trusted so I got categorized as a high risk escape and they placed in secure level 4 jail placement (there’s 5 levels) I was placed in a four man cell and my bunk mate was facing charges because he was being accused of being a serial rapist and serial killer. He bragged the whole time I was there how his lawyer was going to get the case thrown out on some information the lawyer had pertaining to misrepresentation of a warrant search. my bunk mate had a mind level of a genius and it scared me deeply. I felt alone and afraid in Jail everything I worked for come crashing down around me overnight. [I HAD BECOME AFRAID AND [BROKEN]

Tune into the next chapter to find out what happens next. I also encourage you to  share the Testimony page with others so they can know the Love God has for them.

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