I recently published part 7 which you can read by clicking→ here← if you haven’t read it yet . If you haven’t read part 1 yet please do so by clicking →here ←because the posts after part one are in reverse chronological order leading up to the events in part 1 and beyond. Some posts will display secular music to help set the tone for the post.
Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for providing another wonderful day to write the 8th part of the testimony. Lord this testimony hit home deeper compared to the earlier posts I pray that you will continue to heal the hurt within. Lord as I continue to write this testimony series it’s getting harder to click the publish button because I find myself avoiding to start writing the post all together. Lord I know deep down 100% that you asked me through the Holy Spirit to share my long testimony and I want to obey you and that is why I continue to push forward clicking the publish button on each new post. Lord I come before you and ask you to anoint these posts I pray Lord that my pain brings comfort to someone else reading my testimony by them falling to their knees before you asking you to into their hearts, in your precious name Lord, Jesus Christ, Amen.
In part 7 I left off with the following phrase
Almost a year after the overdose I was Feeling completely torn and broken within I fell to my knees and cried out to the Almighty Lord, I said the following to Him,
Lord I believe you placed that paramedic in the back of the ambulance because you knew you could relay a message to me through him, I truly believe Lord you also placed him in the back of the ambulance because you knew how bad off I was from the overdose and you knew he would listen to the Holy Spirit’s guidance to help save my life, I thank you for this please come into my heart Amen.
After I said that simply prayer I waited to feel something different within me but nothing happen until that night after I fell asleep because that is when God started the transformation in my heart behind the scenes unnoticed. Because the next day I woke up and felt Joy for the first time and a very strong thought come upon my mind to read the Bible.
At first I didn’t notice much change I kept reading the Bible daily as well praying but I kept on living a secular self indulgent life style. Shortly after asking the Lord into my heart I meant a couple teenage men that invited me to go to church with them their father was the youth pastor. At first I was reluctant to accept the invitation, after a month went by I accepted their offer to go. I was really impressed with the whole gathering and I started to go weekly, and about two months later I was asked to join the youth power team. I was beginning to feel like I was wanted and needed as well part of a family. (Names changed for privacy reasons) Brian & James started to become more than friends they were like bothers I never had. As the weeks pressed on I became the sound engineer as well the youth promoter to help draw in troubled teens. Brian and James did a weekly act to display the strength of God and one of their acts was to rip a phone book with their bare hands using just their thumbs it’s actually harder than it sounds because it took me 3 weeks to learn the technique. Anyways back to what I was trying to say I really felt like my life mattered for once and that I had a greater purpose.
Things were really starting to look up for me then one day it all crumbled due to Brian and James father giving up on his calling because his wife left him for whatever the reason was this lead their father to start drinking and their home became broken and full of despair. When we stop going to the youth club called “Street Light” I started to fall away from God like I said before I was already living a self-indulgent life style anyways. even though we stop going to “Street Light” I continued to hang with them because they were brothers to me and I would do anything to fit in, and that attitude one day cause me hurt someone else I didn’t even know because we broke into a house in the neighborhood that was under construction and stole all the expensiveness tools. We cost the gentlemen that was under contract to fix the home up thousands of dollars because of our wrongful actions. Shortly after stealing the tools the cops showed up at their home I thought for sure they would have rat’d me out but they didn’t so I got off Scott free in the laws eye’s but conviction wise I was in deep anguish because I couldn’t sleep night after night. The Gentlemen did get majority of his tools back but some of them were already sold on the black market. As the days went on I grew more and more troubled inside and I told the guy I was involved and that I was sorry I thought for sure he would have told the detective about me but he didn’t and I asked him why did he let me off that easy and he replied because I can see you’re really sorry for your actions compared to your friends that were also involved, so instead of turning you in I will have you work for me to pay off the money I lost because of your wrongful actions. The mans mercy meant a lot to me and it helped me to get back on the right track I say this because growing up I always experienced just the opposite of mercy.
As I continued to work off my debt there was a teenage female that was 16 I was 17 at the time she would come across the street to greet me with a cup of ice tea daily. I never asked her, her name I knew my past with women was ugly and I didn’t want to grow closer to her because she was in my opinion a classy young woman. Summer was coming to an end and my debt was coming to end as well. As fall set in I couldn’t get the young woman off my mind because of the kindness she displayed towards me Little did I know that God had future plans for this young woman to minister to my harden heart more on that in a later post. By the time I reached 18 the foster care giver was selling the house and retiring from her career as a foster care giver. I was told the state was going to place me in another home and I didn’t want to go to a new home so I begged my mom to let me move back in with her and she did let me for about a month then I got kicked back out to the curb and became homeless for 2weeks then I gained a apartment from a transitional housing program. Shortly afterwards I got a job and I ran into a ex-girlfriend and found out she lived 20 minutes away from me. So I started to see her again she was the first woman I slept with in over a year and I started to feel conflicted because part of me wanted fast gratification of love and another part of me wanted to live by higher standards.
I continued to date my ex off and on for a year shortly after I turned 19 I meet a young woman that was 17 and at that point I gave up my player status and ways. We dated for 6 months and shortly after her 18th birthday we got married. I thought life was finally turning around for I had a wife by society’s standards that was drop dead gorgeous, plus I landed a well-paying job we were going to church on a regular basis I was living the American dream. About 2 months into the marriage my best friend brought over his male friend and my wife’s sister started to date him then about 3 weeks later my wife left me a dear john letter she had left me for the very man my best friend brought over.
To Be Continued Check out the earlier posts in the series via the new Testimony page
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