Why I Truly Believe There Is A True Loving Merciful God Part 7

I recently published part 6 which you can read by clicking→ here← if you haven’t read it yet . If you haven’t read part 1 yet please do so by clicking →here ←because the posts after part one are in reverse chronological order leading up to the events in part 1 and beyond. Some posts will display secular music to help set the tone for the post.

Prayer:
Dear Heavenly Father thank you Thank you for providing another wonderful day to write the 7th part of the testimony. Lord I also come today because I have fallen upon recent rejection for others I rather not publicly mention I ask for your strength during this time of despair. I know deep down the devil is trying to stop me from spreading the truth about you and he surely doesn’t want his evil scheme’s revealed as well. So Lord as I write the 7th part of the testimony I ask you to guide and comfort me with the power of the Holy  Spirit in your precious name Lord, Jesus Christ, Amen.

I would like to take moment and thank the readers that have read the testimony from part 1 until now and this post is only nearing the half way mark for the series. I hope by you faithfully reading the testimonyposts that the Lord has blessed your heart in some shape or form and I also hope anyone reading these posts from the series that are considering to ask the Lord into their hearts that will see through pain I’ve endured over the years how faithfully the Lord remain by my side through it all because He’s doing the same for you as well!

In part 6 I left off with the following phrase

By the time I turned 17 my mom got her wish by getting me out of the house because one day my therapist came out to the house and I punched my moms boyfriend in the head he has epilepsy so everyone at the house felt I was a threat to my moms boyfriend which is now my step dad for the last 19 yrs. My mom terminated her parental rights through the court system under the cause of me being a threat to the household including my younger sister, so I became ward of the state and placed in an adult foster home.

Lord Please Save Me From What I’ve Become

The Almighty Holy Father Covers and Erases Our Sinful Stains With His Holy Blood And Perfectness

It wasn’t until a couple of months went by living at the fairly new adult foster home that I broke down and cried out to the one and ONLY savior Jesus Christ, Before then I was constantly seeking satan and he was having fun spiritually beating me up it was like I was committing spiritual suicide because satan and his legion of demons were sucking the last bit of life I had within. I can remember the day I cried out to Jesus, like it was yesterday. I was sitting in my room and I started to think how abandon I felt by my family and I begin to cry I was considering suicide again but I couldn’t shake the horrible experience from the last suicide attempt. All I could think about was the feeling of my flesh burning & melting from the last suicide attempt.
Starting at 4:27 there is a home hitting message
I continued on with my day and as night fall, fell upon the sky I laid in bed again having a hard time shaking the tunnel experience I experienced the day I took the overdose, I finally fell asleep but night, after night I kept having nightmares surrounding the overdose experience. I mean I didn’t just walk away from the overdose unharmed it actually stole my passion of writing because I couldn’t spell simple words like dog, and cat, and that lasted for a couple of days but ever since then I cannot write in cursive except my name. and I still struggle with knowing the proper placement of the following “, ; .” etc. before the overdose I was known for my grammar police attitude. I really thought God was off his rocker when the Holy Spirit told me you’re going to write for God and His Glory because of the brain damage I endured from the overdose.

Now that, that little tidbit is out-of-the-way back to explaining what I was trying to explain before I went off course. I went on for about 3-4 months having nightmares every-time I closed my eyes, the pressure of  knowing my passion for writing was destroyed due to the brain damage from the overdose bothered me greatly because it was my avenue to release stress but I lost that avenue after the overdose. After 3-4 months went by I thought to myself I really wanted to know what love is like.

Almost a year after the overdose I was Feeling completely torn and broken within I fell to my knees and cried out to the Almighty Lord, I said the following to Him,

Lord I believe you placed that paramedic in the back of the ambulance because you knew you could relay a message to me through him, I truly believe Lord you also placed him in the back of the ambulance because you knew how bad off I was from the overdose and you knew he would listen to the Holy Spirit’s guidance to help save my life, I thank you for this please come into my heart Amen.

After I said that simply prayer I waited to feel something different within me but nothing happen until that night after I fell asleep because that is when God started the transformation in my heart behind the scenes unnoticed. Because the next day I woke up and felt Joy for the first time and a very strong thought come upon my mind to read the Bible.
To Be Continued Check out the earlier posts in the series via the new Testimony page

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