Where Is My Hero At?

I know this isn’t my usual post format since Daily Aspects is about looking at life in a new aspect through God, But I heard God, tell me I needed to share my recent struggle with my lack of faith and double minded issues… Recently I mentioned in a post that God, spoke to me and said He, freed me from the chains of sexual immortality and that I needed to guard my heart, so I did just that I tried to guard my heart but I was so busy focusing on looking for attacks from satan in the sexual lust area that I allowed satan to begin to weaken me in another area of my life that allowed satan to bring on such a heavy attack that my faith became drowned fast… This lead me to feeling abandon by God, and I started to feel like Hope, to live a righteous life for God, was out of my grasp of reach… I would go to God, daily asking forgiveness for my lack of faith as well my double mindedness with wanting to live Gods, way as well live a secular life style, but I allowed despair to settle in fast as well comfortably even though God, kept nudging my heart that I needed to take my trust to a new level with Him, as well start evangelizing to others, But like I said before at first I was so focus on guarding my heart from satan tempting me with sexual lust  I allowed myself to become blind sided with satan attacking my emotions surrounding around self-worth since I have had issues with this emotion since I was abused a lot as child,

Plain And Simple Satan Is Out To Devour Your Soul And Kill The Image Of God, Within You

So as I continued to let myself, self destruct I begin to experience my heart growing harder towards God, so I became rebellious towards God, this is when lustful thoughts started to enter back into my mind I started to think how I was better off without God, this thinking pattern opened my mind up wider for more attacks from satan I started to lust in my mind constantly this in return led me back to pornographic images as well led me too seek out porn sites at this point I knew I failed with guarding my heart so I cried out to God, save me from this but no response came for days so I got mad and became more rebellious towards God, I notice I was becoming easily angered as well agitated towards others as well…

This lasted for days and I would cry out to God, why won’t you help me then I sensed this conviction to go read my bible but I ignored the conviction and continued on to go play COD MW3 but I noticed I couldn’t connect to the online portion of the game so I reset the internet connection afterwards I retried and still no connection so I turned off the Xbox and restarted the game system at this point the game wouldn’t load at all the game system froze up instead plus I got a black screen in return I tried restarting the game system many times but each time the game wouldn’t even load the single player menu so I got frustrated got up from the chair an went to read the bible that’s when God brought Luke 16 to my attention… After reading the chapter I laid down and ponder on why God wasn’t helping me when I needed a Hero to save me…

That’s when God, replied shortly after I did rescued you like a Hero would I was faithful on my end I carried your battered soul as I gave you rest even though your rejection was hurtful, The reason You sensed I abandon you is because you allowed your self to become so focused on the negativity surrounding you, that you in return allowed my presence to become a distant fragment in your review mirror while you kept speeding do the road of self-destruction, At this point I realized I was the blocking element between me and God, even though God, kept reaching out to save me from self-destruction, after realizing this I became enraged at the fact I didn’t allow myself to rely on Gods, strength when I needed it the most so I asked God, to forgive me and re-awake my soul that’s when I experienced God, breathe life as well Holy Fire, back into my dry soul also at this point I sensed God, put me down and asked me to start walking beside Him, again

Conclusion
No matter what is going on in your life at this very moment God, is being your faithful HERO, and never left your side even though God, may seem transparent in your life at the moment you can rest assure He, is carrying your soul as a Christian or Sinner,

God, is that faithful to love us no matter what!!! Satan on the other hand is afraid of what God, can do in your life as well satan is afraid of you being a vessel for God, to display His, Heroism, through you towards others in need of a Hero, that can save them in the long run if they are willing to receive Life, through God, and like I said before this truly frightens satan because he, wants to spiritually rape and steal souls from God, because we’re so precious in Gods, eyes…

I cannot express enough we here on earth for a purpose and that true purpose can only be found through God, if you’re interested with asking God, into your heart or you’re a backsliding Christian and would like to renew your pledge with God, you can do so by starting → here