What I’m about to share is a perfect example of God, continuing to be by my side during my porn addiction… (God, is by your side now as well!!! And if you landed on this post from a search query or from a person recommending this post it was God, guiding you here.)
There is a serious Spiritual Virus epidemic sweeping the land causing Christians to hide behind mask(s) instead of being their true self’s… I recently experienced the damaging effects this spiritual virus can cause, I became blinded to the damaging effects as well the fact I was hiding behind many masks until God, brought it to my attention and when God, did I still denied the fact that I had many masks that I was wearing daily. I just couldn’t comprehend I was infected by a serious “Spiritual Virus” The reason I couldn’t comprehend it is because I was blinded by the Spiritual Virus Called [PRIDE]
Christian around Others Monster Behind Close Doors
[Pride] is very nasty because the sin was designed to hide like a virus hiding from a anti-virus program, God, had to show me more than once that He, was the only spiritual anti-virus solution that this damaging spiritual virus couldn’t hide from, even though God, showed me the solution I continued trying on my own to fight my flesh as well temptation with Porn the reason I did is because pride has another side effect that causes the infected person to rationalize and make up justifiable reasons why they can change on their own without Gods, help…
Lord Wake Up My Spirit Within
Even though I had a desire to live for God, I kept entrapping myself by giving into to the monster within I would constantly cry out to God, for help But God, was no where insight at least I believed that He, wasn’t at the time I was actually too blinded by my sinful ways to notice God, was with me the whole time throughout the journey of God, preparing me for the event that would un-mask me after suffering from a porn addiction for a Little over 2yrs…
I couldn’t understand at the time why God, was not allowing me to rest from the spiritual battle happening within me until I started to write this post… God, revealed to me that because I kept leaning towards my sinful desires that I was opening the door for the devil to attack on a stronger level so God, decided it would be beneficial to let the Devil have his way with boundary’s from God, Like I said before God, was in control the whole time God, only stepped in when He, felt my soul would become overly overwhelmed or because satan was tying to break the boundary’s set by the Almighty God, The best way I can explain this experience is it was similar to the (Book of Job) Even though I didn’t experience the level of intensity that Job, experienced it still was enough to allow God, to teach me a lesson as well condition me for the moment God, sought suitable to break and humble me…
Joshua 1:9 (NIV)
9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
My Soul Continues To Be Slumbered Then Becomes Awaken By The Holy Spirit Within Gods’ Perfect Timing!
All though This last year was the hardest part of the spiritual battle I don’t regret it because God, allowed the Spiritual Battle too shape me into a more mature Christian as well a more mature person, [okay back on track] As I continued to battle between Gods, ways vs my ways God’ never forsaken me even though I forsaken Him, with my sin related actions as well God, still continued the process of change in me because He, was measuring my heart vs measuring my actions that caused me to forsake Him,
Lord, Thank You For Breaking My Pride As Well For Removing The Masks Of Various Sins In Return I Want To Truly Surrender To Your ways! I Can Not Thank You Enough!!! Lord,
Couple Saturdays ago I said to my wife, God, spoke to my heart and said I need you to go to church tomorrow I have a message I need you to hear! I haven’t been to church in a while because I fell away do to my shame of my addiction as well because of the Hypocrisy happening within me… As the day pressed on the conviction grow stronger about showing up at church that’s when I started to experience conflict within me I almost gave into the temptation of not going to church… I begin to think to myself if the temptation is this strong not to go to church I better make it at all cost…
Sunday morning arrived I and my wife, went to church the pastor preached about Mark, 2:1-12 The scripture spoke about how 4 men brought a paralyzed man to jesus but they couldn’t gain access to Jesus, So they climbed up on to the roof and dug their way through the roof and then lowered the paralyzed man down to Jesus because of their faith the Paralyzed man was forgiven as well healed…
After church I said to my wife I think I might have missed the message God, wanted me to hear I was confused after leaving church and I told my wife this that’s when she replied God’s message will become clear within His, perfect timing!
This pass Thursday I felt like giving up on God, that’s when I notice the title How to trust God even though you’re very mad at Him via the WP blog reader feed after reading the post I felt a spark of hope so I left a comment for the author of the post This pass Saturday the author replied back with a very encouraging reply as well a link for me to check out so I did just that after clicking the link I was taken to a blog article while at the blog I noticed they had a link to their main site Pure Life Ministries so I clicked the link I noticed right away after arriving to their main site a link to a page titled “Setting men free” so I clicked the link and started to watch the testimony videos of ex-porn addicts after watching two testimony videos I was intrigued to hear more to my amazement after clicking on the 3rd video the man spoke about the paralyzed man being lowered down to Christ, and how that scripture related to his addiction because His co-workers got him, help because he was paralyzed by the sin related to his porn addiction, The message God, had for me became very clear at this point God, started breaking me because I fell apart and started to experience uncontrollable tears…
It actually felt like God, took a sledge-hammer and smashed the pride within me at this point even though I have prayed to God, on many occasions for deliverance from the addiction of sexual immortality, this time around my prayer was going to be a lot different and it was, I was so broken and Humbled I was able to fall apart and be myself and pour my Heart out to God, with sincereness because God, stripped away the masks which in return allowed me to see myself like God, has seen me all this time because He, was looking past the sin related masks I was wearing…
After I got done praying I felt this warm blissful feeling come upon me I felt God, hugging me as well I heard God, whisper I have been by your side through all this… Afterwards I felt this weight lift upwards off my shoulders (Symbolic Aspect) Then I heard God, reply
my child your free from the chains of sexual immortality but you still need to guard your heart because you could become ensnared again if you don’t, satan is not going to be happy with you being set free from the chains he, entrapped your soul with so he will try harder than before as long as you keep true to my commandments satan will never be able reattach the chains of sexual immortality…
I have struggled with lust for a little over two years and finally I feel free! I told my wife, the night before I received the reply from the author that I could feel change happening within me and I truly believe before the authors reply to my comment that God, was preparing me so that my heart would be tender enough to allow Gods, intervention to break and humble me the next following day… (which was ironically Saturday)
Isaiah 43:1-3 – Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Saviour.”
Conclusion: In Christ Alone All Addiction Battles Are Won!
Pride is a very dangerous sin because it becomes the foundation for other sins to become masked from you due to spiritual blindness, satan uses these masked sins to create strong holds in the mind which in return helps fuel addictions While writing this post I questioned myself why my porn addiction lasted for little over 2yrs even though I have asked myself this question many times as the months passed on God, with his perfect timing provided a key element to over coming any addiction…
The key element is when satan has a strong hold in your mind you can not be like the Israelite’s that were trapped in the wilderness for 40yrs because they chose their own way over Gods, way… In today’s aspects of the wilderness when a person keeps returning to the scene of the crime of addiction they are forcing Gods, hand away which in return makes the person wander aimlessly without Gods, guidance to the nearest escape route from the temptation of the addiction the person is suffering from…
The only way to truly break away from the addiction of porn or any other addiction for that matter is to ask God, into your heart if you haven’t already the next step is to trust God, because satan is not our only enemy our unpure desires are a enemy to us as well God, because of the following reasons mentioned we need to reach out to God, so we can become a part of Him by God, sending his Holy Spirit to be in union with our (soul) spirit
Bottom line we’re nothing without God, because we are powerless to over come our addictions it’s a daily war that will last until you leave this earth so you need to make a choice are you going to continue to do things your way and give satan delight with destroying your soul our are you going to hand the wheel over to God, and have the comfort of Victory over satan….
I guarantee God, placed you here on earth because He, has wonderful purpose for you - Don’t give up - NO matter what!
Dear Heavenly Father I humbly Come before you in prayer I would like to thank you for guiding me with the Holy spirit, to write this post I give you all the credit Lord, as well I am humbled you chose me as your vessel to write this post I am also thankful for you being there in the midst of my struggles with my addiction of Porn, I am also coming to you in prayer that my past mess with the addiction of porn will display your glory as well I am asking for your anointment for this post in hopes that anyone that comes across this post will receive the message you’re relying to them I’m also asking that this post through your anointment that anyone that reads this post for their heart to be soften so you can lay upon their hearts conviction to seek desire for you instead of their addiction(s) Thank you Lord, for hearing my prayer and for the blessings you will pour onto others through the anointment of this post… Amen!
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Hi Slik, love your new photo. God is so faithful! As we submit to him, our lives are changed. We struggle with our pet sins and cry out to him. He rescues us and takes us out of the slimy pit and put our feet on the firm Rock. We overcome by the word of our testimony, the blood of the Lamb and count our lives even to death. This includes death to our flesh and pride of trying to do it on our own, which is impossible.
Hi Admin thank you for the photo compliment I created this 3d avatar with 3d modeling software I recently downloaded.
Yes God is such a faithful God that never fails us. (Thank you Jesus!!!) I have found that my pet sin can be haunting at times trying to lure me back into that lifestyle but with the Blood of the lamb of Yahweh ALL sins have been Conquered and I can rest assure that Gods strength will not fail or fall short like my strength would each and every-time.
I’ve noticed because of pride being a sin that is designed to hide from it self I must rely upon God daily as a spiritual antivirus to alert me when pride starts to creep back into my life, I say this because in the past I relied on my ability to alert myself when pride would creep back into my life and each and every-time pride would successfully slip into my life unnoticed and begin to manifest into other various sins as well.
Thank you for taking the time to leave a comment I always enjoy reading what you have to say. You’re a very wise person may God continue to bless you.
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Slik, thank-you!
Our freedom from pornography addiction and affairs of the mind only came when we filled our ears with the good news gospel of Joseph Prince Ministries, day in and day out, through listening to sermons. “Faith does come by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.”
When we filled our ears with Christ’s love for us, we started believing He is not mad at us, his Son paid, I can come to Him boldly, I don’t have to cleanse myself first….
Both my husband and I no longer fanatasize, after 30 yrs of addiction! Oh, this is such good news, I had to share it!
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Hello Slik,I cannot believe I read this whole post,because I don’t usually read post that are this long.But I left and came back,I still do not know why? I know that God is with me at all times and that he loves me dearly.Right now I’m a little angry at God because I’ve tired and prayed and tired and prayed.This weight problem has me highly upset I mean I know God can do anything! But it seems as if I’m never going to be free!! And I hate being fat more than anything and where is my help?! Golly I went back in 2000 to a doctor for help and the pills worked very good,I lost the weight got down from a size 24 to a size 8!! But I’m gaining again,up & down is where I’ve been as long as I can remember.I want to stop this cycle of overeating but I cannot,I’ve confessed to God that I cannot do it!! Please pray for me,I’m so glad you’re from your addiction and I’m looking forward to be free from this food addiction.
Love you brother
I could haven’t said it any better ” Pride” is a dangerous sin, every person has it in some form, and blinders are the worst thing for a person to have masking it, Parable the military trying to see any enemy in the jungle at night, without night vision binoculars. Breaking the pride barriers do take time and it takes many different ways for those barriers to be broken what has worked for you in the time it took for you could take longer and a different strategy. You have showed me long ago that I still had some Pride hidden in me.
Hi Bald2soon, thanks for stopping by and for also leaving your input…
This is true but there is one general aspect that would be the same for everyone and that is change starts by reading the bible… Because the Bible provides nourishment for the soul which in return allows God, to start the change process within…
It’s very true that it may take longer for someone else to become delivered from their addictions God, showed me today as I was writing the post that the time variance also rely’s on the aspect of the person when their ready to fully commit to Gods ways instead of their own ways… (Satan’s strong hold strength also plays a factor as well as God’s timing)
As for Gods’ strategy it depends on how God sees fit to grab the persons 100% attention as well if their heart is nourished enough to handle a reality Crash when the pride becomes stripped from the person… For me when God, stripped my pride it was a shell shock for me because I spiritually woke up and could see the damage Satan caused as well the damage I allowed to happen because of giving into my wicked self desires…
I have to say the the most heavy part of the shell shock was after my pride was stripped I was spiritually awaken how Powerless I was without God, vs before I was stripped of my pride I was living by the deception I can handle my addiction without Gods, help…